Date: This morning
Location: The bathroom, where I am helping Ry comb his hair.
Me (yelling to Meg in the other room): Hey, California! You getting dressed in there?
Meg: Yeah!
Me (to Reilly): Do you know why I call her California?
Reilly: (Brief pause.) Because she’s a few hours off?
Day-um, even half-asleep he’s funny. That wasn’t why I called her California . . . but I certainly like his answer better!! Such a smarty pants.
Today is our 14th Anniversary. (Happy Anniversary, honey!)
Truth be told, the first half of 2008 has been, perhaps, the worst 6 months of our married life. In some ways. And in others, it has been among the best. I like to think that we’re on an upswing, gearing up for some really amazing years ahead of us.
Even though there have been hardships we have faced and are currently enduring . . . I feel lucky that I have Mike at my side to share the bad and the good. And I hope he realizes that I feel blessed to have the opportunity to stand at his side, and even prop him up during difficult times.
I have undergone a paradigm shift this year. At 39, I’ve grown up quite a bit. Shed some attitudes and resentments. Opened myself up to possibilities. And am learning to focus on TODAY. Not how I messed up YESTERDAY. Or worry about what will happen TOMORROW. But to be the best person that I possibly can be at this very moment. And that, perhaps, that’s what’s best for Mike and the kids, too.
So, if this “old married lady” can impart a bit of advice to anyone who might stumble upon this blog entry, it would be this: Instead of trying to control/criticize/question the actions and motives of others, look to yourself to see what you can bring to the table. What small act can you do to make a difference in someone else’s life today? Stop pointing fingers. And don’t wait another second to soften your heart and let that person in.
And P.S. to Mike: The second half of 2008 is going to be so much better. I promise. Love you.
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